Dear you,

I remember it. I remember it all.

It’s still all clear to me how you walked into that door. The way you stared at me seemed like you’re looking through me, into my soul. At that very moment, I knew there’s something in you. Something good. Something special.

The kind of special that made me break all self-made rules in an instant. The kind that made me brave all the doubts and “what ifs” and let it all fly. You convinced me that it’s all worth a try without even saying a word. You made me do all the unusual risks, smoothly, effortlessly without a single thought of backing out.

And though the world may never understand, you gave me the best comfort I can ever have. And for a person who overthinks like me, you gave me the kind of peace no one can ever imagined possible. The type of understanding I yearn for. You gave me all that without you even knowing.

My heart started to create a special place for you. For all that you are, and for all that you are not. And even if you being who you are, the consistently inconsistent, this place just kind of grew on me. In fact, it grows every single day without me even trying, it feels so natural and genuine and beautiful and that’s when I thought It’s real.

But as seconds turned to minutes to hours to days. You put me into some place that I can’t recognize. You put me in between yes and no. In between hi and goodbye. In between holding on and letting go. In between happiness and sadness. You put me in a place where I promised myself not to be anymore a long time ago. In confusion.

Yet despite the uncertainties and dramas and pains and tears, I am still standing in the place where you left me. And I want you to know that this is by choice. Cause no matter how bizarre it may sound, at any time of the day, I will choose you. Always you. Because you are the choice that truly mattered.

To the guy who thinks pain will last forever, shake the heaviness from your shoulders and be willing to start again. Allow yourself to rest. Allow yourself to heal.

To the man with nice perspective but has lonely eyes, I fell for you.

To the man who laughs hard but always looks sad, it’s always been happier with you. I’m always happier with you.

To the man who’s best at being inconsistent, the best thing I’ve ever held was you.

To the man who's feels everything deeply but everyone thinks empty, my heart is so full of you.

To the man who keeps his heart hidden, I see you.

To the man who’s good at licking his wounds in private, I care for you, a lot.

To the man who’s searching for answers, please know that the answers are all you.

To the man who’s not just good looking and charming but is also substantial, I always talk to God about you.